Stupid Animal Thoughts All Stacked Up

I am not even sure how to explain this painting... I'm not sure I want to at this moment, I guess I would be willing to talk to anyone who asked but... out here in the middle of no where... we go unquestioned, unnoticed... unloved and we're mostly ok with it, just so long as we get to do what we love...

I don't know why I'm here anymore...

There are things I enjoy but overall, I just wonder if its time to go... It just seems like so much is about to happen... all these years of effort have slowly built up and are all ready to pay off if I can just hold on.. or let go.. I don't know what I'm supposed to do at this point.

I just want to paint.